YThursday, February 01, 2007
had an arguement with dear today.it was my fault for scolding him in public.stupid me!but that time i cant help my feelings.i was to angry till i burst out to tears.i feel so different!i dont know why he acted that way.he was different today.i asked him why he was so different today but then he told me that theres nothing going on.what make me mad is that he kept smiling and laughing when i was serious.&everytime im mad at him,he'll smile&laugh!i was about to cry when he did the same fugley thing.i was so mad and i ask him to home by himself instead of sending me home!i cant help it!i was so angry that time.even my friends know that i'm a hot-tempered kind of person.what makes me regret that,did petpet saw everything?after that,i tried calling b but he didnt want to ans.i text msged him but till now he never did reply to my text.i'm worried sick.i dont want to lose him!never did i want to lose him!i want to be with him!i know that we can still last long.i know its all my fault!im freaking pissed with myself for doing such things!b,im sorry.i know i was wrong.oh boy,i cant help it.im crying while typing.its hard for me to blog all this.i feel like theres a knife stabbing right to my heart!i feel so different!i want to talk to him.but i know we wont talk much and we'll just keep quiet all the way.i want us to compromise.i hate to argue but then,i just cant help it!b,im sorry for everything.its hard for me to control my feelings.i want us to be happy like other couples.but i know theres ups&downs.we've been fighting for like 618748937013874 times.im tired of all this but i'll try to maintain everything,i dont want to hurt your feelings.i hate doing that cause by doing that im hurt too!i love you dear darling boyfie!smuacks!hearts&kisses.
much love,ika.
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